Contextual Analysis of "i woke up today" in Lyrics

hey

i thought i could change the world

hey

i thought i could change the world

and the sun is rising

like i wanted

and the sun is rising

like i wanted

woke up today with a hole in my chest

tearing pictures apart both physical and in my brain

uncertain roads and the thrill of the chase

i saw a girl at a bus stop crying on her telephone

start

after a blurry night. a never ending fight

start

everything's on my shoulders

party time and everything that mattered

i had bits of lungs shrapnel glass and cigarettes for breakfast