Contextual Analysis of "maybe that's just how i am" in Lyrics

cause i don't feel too good. i'm tired of miracles and being so understood. let's all be difficult and never try too hard. let's all be critical of those who show their heart. if this sounds typical then congratulate yourself. i'm proud i'm miserable but don't tell anyone because i'm breaking down. maybe i'm just lost they said. maybe i'm just tired or dead inside. something's wrong with me. maybe that's just how i am. maybe i'm a mess and i ain't gonna change. so tired of being old and feeling cold and numb. so tired of being told i'm acting young and dumb. i'm not as quick to say that i wish i could quit. i gave up on giving up and lost myself a bit trying to be a ghost. maybe i'm just lost they said. maybe i'm just tired or dead inside. something's wrong with me. maybe that's just how i am. maybe i'm a mess and i ain't gonna change. i don't wanna be here. i don't wanna be there