20/20

i would never have been in such a rush

i would never have tried to control

i would never have worn such 'fear lenses'

i would never have held on so tightly

i would have kept my boundaries set

my loving no's

my unwavering yes's

risked abandonment and stood by that

and thereby felt constant connect

this fountain of regret

this looking back with twenty-twenty

torturous hindsight if i knew then what i know now

this mountain of remorse won't repeat with my understanding

this wouldn't have happened if i knew then what i know now

i would've gone slower

pushed infrequent

would not have rushed into such commitment

i would've shown restraint as my feet got wet

i would've baby-stepped into intimate

this fountain of regret

this looking back with twenty-twenty

this torturous hindsight if i knew then what i know now

this mountain of remorse won't repeat with my understanding

this wouldn't have happened if i knew then what i know now

i would've known much more

known that time was all we had for future depth to unfold

i would've had more faith at every step

i would've kept intact through the whole process

oh this fountain of regret is looking back with twenty-twenty

torturous hindsight if i knew then what i know now

this mountain of remorse won't repeat with my understanding

this wouldn't have happened if i knew then what i know