5+6=218

Did you ever think about killing yourself?

Yes

many times…; because I don't worship this existence. So therefore

it's the…; it's a driving force for me…; is to die. It's the only power I can

get

you know

from…; the only reason why I'm still here is because

I want to die in a certain way. And I want to achieve some things.

I wouldn't dare to die with a weak soul

I wouldn't dare to die with a

human goodness or a human light in my mind.

It's just that I want to clean my soul a little bit from the shit here

so…;