i don't know how to dance

momma told me pull my pants up

so my style is kinda random

you don't know my life

i ain't have the newest jordans

we- we couldn't afford them

when you're the youngest of five kids

you gotta sacrifice

used to want to be the man

get an ovation when i stand

'til i realized i was walking like you

gotta' make my own footprints in the sand

had me fucked up

like diddy and da band

identity crisis

an overly nice kid

discovered the vices

the liquor provided

the sex i hide in

i've changed so much

so my memories priceless

who am i?

being in my 20s

i've kinda treated liquor as a way to free me of my insecurities

as though there's a better me i can only reach when i'm intoxicated

but that's not true

i control who i am

you can take me to the water

but i'll die if i drink

gotta' find my soul

gotta' find a place to think

what is me

if i'm you? what is black

if i'm blue?

there's a kink in the system

gonna find my way through

where i go?

i don't believe in god

but

i think it's pretty obvious

there's a higher being inside us

in every living thing

fuck who you try to make me

you can pray if you wanna save me

if your force feed your bible

what does it really mean? what does it really mean?

i mean cancer's real

i mean cancer kills

i don't really care if i don't make it to 60

if heaven's there

you think god's against me?

if our president can fuck lewinsky

we're all human

we're all doomed and

no one's perfect

dreams are lucid

i just try to be the best i can

so when i die i'm not just pollution on this fragile earth

i don't really follow any gods or religions

though i've always believed in a connection between all life forms

but if there is a god

i highly doubt that i'd be faulted for not reading a book

written by the hands of men

you can take me to the water

but i'll die if i drink

gotta' find my soul

gotta' find a place to think

what is me

if i'm you? what is black

if i'm blue?

there's a kink in the system

gonna find my way through

where i go? where i go?

getting high when i'm low

just a flake in the snow

where i go? where i go?

getting high when i'm low

just a flake in the snow

i hope i'm not being too- preachy about not being preachy

it just- hehe- it comes out that way sometimes

i live a second life in my head

but lately

i've just been tryna' put the real one in perspective

you see

my mother turns 60 this year

a number that she'll wear so well

and although she didn't live a perfect life

she's one of the most beautiful souls that i know

she believes in god

but she's never pressured me to do anything

other than live a life of values and purpose

because that's all you really need

so fuck all that other bullshit

and what they want you to think

we all have to find our own way to the light

and that light is not always in the shadow of others' thoughts

and often involves some bad decisions

but those decisions don't define you

just live