can't have it all

applying moisturizer in the microwave window

for the tenth time

he should've called me an hour ago

would he be here with flowers if i lived in arizona?

they say there's no love left in the big cities

it's kinda true

i guess you'll find me coming soon to a small town near you

i'll sell my guitar so i can by myself a tractor

fuck this

this can't be my life

i moisturized ten times tonight

why can't i sit down and write

bring this question to light?

do you want a lover

or do you want a life?

one hand or the other

the butter or the bread knife?

do you choose winter or spring

summer or fall?

it's driving me crazy that i can't have it all

if these walls could talk

they'd probably cry out for mercy

'til i'm outlined in chalk

i'll be romantically thirsty

so i drink and drink from the proverbial time sink

fuck this

this can't be my life

tears flowing in full force tonight

why can't i sit down and write

bring this question to light?

do we hold the future

or does it come in peace?

and if it's in my hands

are you sure it should be in brittle hands like these?

life

love

and the pursuit of all the things they promised me

can i have all of the above? are the best things in life truly free?