Chapters

Looking back on my footsteps on the cold ground

feeling like fleeing

They say the path I took should be my fate

but I wanna take my lazy steps on my own

Day by day

second by second

I set the course anew

Walking through the frames of my life

looking for the moments I'll remember with a smile

Tripping over lies and hate

envy and vanity

I wish I could change the order of proceedings

no chance at all

I build a time machine

I will reverse my mistakes

pain fade away!

All these sources of noise are whispering and screaming

tempting and frightening

in the middle of my head

beyond my heart

They try to change my mind into something bad

fighting against them for years

But in the end I still decide on my own

fearing the mistakes

fearing the responsibility to myself and to my beloved

to my beloved

These photos…

Can't overlook the flashlights

they are surrounding me

observing all my movements

But finally it's me who's crying for my perfect sincerity

crying for my salvation

crying for the respect against for myself

So where is the golden means of all decisions? Don't even know if there is a right way I could choose

I go down on my knees

I'm yelling at the ground

in the hope of finding some new answers

Thousands of questions

only one life for finding answers.

One question for thousands of lives - breathing slowly - what if

Despite this I never stopped believing in

waiting for the point I can see it clearly