If You're Watching

I think I found what I'm looking for

Behind those eyes and open door

That vacant stare

which I adore

I'm your slut and you're my whore

Spare yourself the aching heart

And spare yourself the pain

Let us just make believe

It's yesterday again

And mother

if you're watching

look away

And mother

if you're wondering

But don't know what to say…

Mother

if you're watching

look away

Just look away

I think I found what I'm looking for

So hit the lights

and shut the door

Listen carefully

here's the score

I'm your slut and you're my whore

Spare yourself the aching heart

And spare yourself the shame

Let us just make believe

It's yesterday again

And mother

if you're watching

look away

And mother

if you're wondering

But don't know what to say…

Mother

if you're watching

look away

Look away

It sometimes makes me sick inside

Ashamed of a life that I must hide

I know you'll never understand

I'm sorry there's no wedding band

But deep inside there's still that child

Innocent in a world gone wild

Obediant of your moral code

Scarred by the Christian overlord

But still I live by truth and love

I still have hopes in the above

I still have interest in the cross

But mother if you're listening

shut it off

Mother if you're watching

look away

Just look away

Just look away

Just look away