foreseen is finally happening. i cannot for a single second stand the way i feel. i always knew. i always saw it coming. enveloped now
encased by my worst fear. i've never felt the nausea of longing to feel nothing
i never wanted to cease to
exist
just disappear. fear memories are all that lie ahead. never have i felt so lost. memories dull my senses. fear tragedy is all that lies ahead. never have i felt so dead. once felt so warm
now i'm fucking freezing. i am the once embraced abandoned one. i raised my eyes up to the light in hopes of finding healing;