a slow descent

i'm tired. cynical and broken

but wiser. heavy with a sense of resentment

but i used to be so much different

i used to have so much faith

when i started. you knew that i always meant it. i knew i could make a difference

i struggled to be heard

and then finally

one day people started listening. and i knew it

but as soon as it began it was ruined. a slow descent from unique to routine

over and over

just do it again and this time with feeling". the spotlight. the focus on the friends and the feelings. that made those stupid songs all worth singing. and don't you say a word