actual pain

it's tearing me apart

deep inside my heart

tell me why i hurt this way

should i even love you anymore

i don't want to find out why

i'm too scared to look behind that door

i put my trust in all my faith

and every word between us spoken

why do i believe the things you say

when my heart's already broken

all this pain i feel

is tearing me apart

it's what makes you real

deep inside my heart

i can only count the ways

i earn these scars but they're all tokens

every time i see your face

i know my hopes no longer showing

i don't need a reason to believe

if my faith's already broken

how could i let love lead the way

when i don't know where i'm going

all this pain i feel

is tearing me apart

it's what makes you real

deep inside my heart

i thought so hard

still i feel like i'm in chains

and i gave my heart

but the darkness still remains

all this pain i feel

is tearing me apart

it's what makes you real

deep inside my heart

tell me why i hurt this way

should i even love you anymore

i don't want to find out why

i'm too scared to look behind that door