afraid to get close

watching the cat sleep on my pillows

afraid to get close to anyone and afraid not to

the need of all creatures to be warmed and touched

the girls who want dads

i think the writing is eating up myself

preventing any togetherness with anyone

hurting and recycling people over and over again

how much longer?

how many more?

i held her in my arms and i didn't want to realize

she was putting her life in my hands