appointments

i'm staying in tonight

i won't stop you from leaving

i know that i'm not what you wanted

am i?

wanted someone who i used to be like

now you think i'm not trying

well

don't argue it's not worth the effort to lie

you don't want to bring it up

and i already know how we look

you don't have to remind me so much

how i disappoint you

it's just that i talked to somebody again

that knows how to help me get better

until then i should just try not to miss anymore

appointments

i think if i ruin this

that i know i can live with it

nothing turns out like i pictured it

maybe the emptiness is just a lesson in canvases

i think if i fail again

that i know you're still listening

maybe it's all gonna turn out alright

and i know that it's not

but i have to believe that it is

i have to believe that it is

i have to believe that it is

i have to believe that it is

and when i tell you that you that it is

oh

it's not for my benefit

maybe it's all gonna turn out alright

oh

i know that it's not

but i have to believe that it is