archives

a fine jumping off point

alone in the desert

barking at mirrors again

once thought you a habit

religious or not

it seems pretty clear you've been made

watch you in action

you were the smart one

me

i'm an archive of fear

space on a shelf

with pages unworn

and i'm sitting closer to you every year

i feel above it

swim in your privilege

i found you're the one that i love

and then i sink

beautiful people they die just like you every year

i wonder where you come from

i'm so anxious you're just numb

i could wait here

i'll just wait here

you're my jumping off point

alone in the desert

biting my nails til they bleed

once found in a habit

all that i learned

i can quit anything i don't drink

look for you at my station

you were the smartest

and i haven't archived each year

space on that shelf

and the pages untouched

and i'm sitting closer to you every year

i feel beneath it

swim in your privilege

i find you're the one that i love

and then i think

beautiful people they die just like you every week

i wonder where you come from

i'm so anxious you're just numb

i could wait here

i'll just wait here

if they don't have much to say

at least they should know your name

an awkward moment's scar

at best they can know where you are

still i wonder where you come from

i'm so anxious you're just calm

i could wait here

i'll just wait here

not much left to say

if anything the least they can do is know your name

it's awkward enough at the start

at best they can know where we are.