bad husband

we never saw from each other's sides

or eye to eye

just eye for eye

lie for lie

fight or flight

so much baggage

need a luggage rack

but we carry on with our public spats and our feuds

up back in the news

love taps when i dissed you

like it was fun

actually used to run back to the booth

jump back in the studio

give you a tongue lashing

then you

laughed at a stomach tat with the tomb stone

it was funny back in our youth

but then it wasn't after we knew

that we were done and actually through

but if there's one fraction of truth

if it could be spun back i would do

so many things different

'cause it was such a dumbass excuse

you hit me once and that i would use

to continue the pattern of abuse

why did i punch back? girls

your dad is a scumbag

i'm confused

because

how come you can be a lord and a loser?

how come

how come

you can be a liar and a good father?

a good dad

but a bad husband

why are you a good father?

a great dad

but a bad husband

you were the beat i loved with a writer's block

the line that's hot

that i forgot

we laughed a little

cried a lot

i'll never forget when you came home and you held hailie

day before you went to jail and daily

how we'd wait for that mail lady

or by the phone for mom to call

and i watched you pull yourself up and we decided on

givin' it one more try despite it all

you're my lightning rod when my sky gets dark

i'm your shiny rocks in that tiny box

when we tied the knot

when we broke the knot

every line we crossed we were supposed to not

every time we fought

the insults

they got. thrown too far

words that we said that we didn't mean

the words that we meant that we didn't say

the ones that we thought that we shoulda said

letters written that we coulda read

which maybe woulda lead to some good instead

and had this put to bed

but i'd be lyin' still if i said i wasn't sittin' here askin' myself

]

how come you can be a lord and a loser?

how come

how come

you can be a liar and a good father?

a good dad

but a bad husband

why are you a good father?

a great dad

but a bad husband dad)

forever be a hero in my eyes

but there's always another side to a good father

a great dad

but a bad husband

we brought out the worst in each other

someone had to make the sparring end

'cause i loved you

but i hated that me

and i don't wanna see that side again

but i'm sorry

kim

more than you could ever comprehend

leavin' you was fuckin' harder than

sawing off a fuckin' body limb

once upon a time where all we had

maybe that's what drew us

to each other

it was true love

shit

we never knew was possible

we might have loved each other too much

and maybe that's what made us do what

we did to each other

all the screw-ups

'cause you always thought that you was

more in love with me

and i was thinkin' i was more in love than you was

for all the times that we thought it worked

'til we saw how wrong we were

when the dust settles now and all the dirt

if i touch the rawest nerve

all i want is for us not to hurt

and it's been an exhaustive search to find the words

but i just heard mockingbird"