eating its way out of me

feels like i'm walking the same road

you changed clothes

and cleaned yourself with each time you're near

my head explodes

what lit the way was the light in my head

now my batteries are dying

i'm almost dead

i try to take in what friends say but nothing helps

why's this monster trying to turn me into something else?

i sit around and wait

i guess we'll find out

as beautiful as this hole is

i need to climb out

cause you know that you mean so much to me

even though you don't give a fuck about me

and i saw it coming but i did nothing

cause you know i don't give a fuck about me

i'd like to switch but i can't change like i rearranged

the furniture in my head now i'm just sitting strange

everything is so distant

including the pain

i'd like to make it all go away but it's too ingrained

i'm trying to stay afloat

picture a different end

but i can't see the shoreline or which way to swim

reopen the scab in my head that never healed right

i can say i'm happy

just don't know what it feels like

i'd like to say i can deal

will i escape duress?

when i can't explain the scars on my arms and chest

see the abyss

i pucker up and give her a kiss

she holds me close and puts cigarettes out on my wrists

i'm just a bum-out who's run out of lies truthfully

i guess there's nothing that you or i could do for me

i got a list of prescriptions i should stay off

i guess my overdose either did the trick or was way off