call yourself renee

don't look back until you realise you're pointedly not trying to look back

then reconsider trying for a clearer mind

try for a grace of some kind

leave your house and walk in the autumn light

imagine a river

massive and galloping beneath your feet

or you can call yourself renee again and you can move back to rapid city

you live in a hotel

you wait for a phone call

you wait for an email

you look out the window at a tree

weighted down with snow

you worry about your mother

you watch a couple movies

you take an ativan

you walk down a rapid city street alone

and at night there's a pink cast underneath the blank grey cloud head

well it's something pretty to look at in the sky

and i don't know why so-and-so's taking much time to breathe something new into my life

and there's a tip-tap on the window that could be fate's pale face looking in

energy could be in the trembling hands of a tree

or it could be lighter

could be nothing at all

out in the night

the world was right against our skin

and it was right again

out in the night

the world was right against our skin

and it was right

baby

mysteriously absent for the afternoon and suddenly missing for a full month

his mother called up

called around the corner

called out shivering from a dream

called his father five states to the south

said he was gone

when he could have easily been seen in a vero beach dillard's

weaving in and out of the racks of beautiful blue men's shirts

or in south florida

breezing through the drive-through

easy like a song on the stereo

letting it all slide like an easy-going god

or he could have not existed

just a vision of his mother

when she wished it so hard into something she could almost see

or he could have been a feeling in the air

or the guy who cuts your hair

he could have been anyone

he could even have been me

and me

i don't care if i come back as a single wave

or an oriole on a spell branch on a tree

cause i'm not scared to die as long as i know

that the universe has something really to do with me

out in the night

the air was right against our skin

and it was right

out in the night

the air was right against our skin

and it was right

baby

i wanna make it nice again

i wanna make it alright

i wanna make it nice again

i wanna make it alright

out in the night

the world was right against our skin

and it was alright

child

out in the night

the world was right against our skin

and it was alright

baby

i wanna make it nice again

i wanna make it alright