deathbed

i apologize for what i said

but i still meant it

i know that i live in my head

u won't let me forget it

i promised that i tried

but walls don't break

and words don't mean enough

i swear i never meant

to lose my grip on something that i love

i'll be laying on my deathbed

and i'll tell u that i fucked it up

yeah i'll be laying on my deathbed

'cause i love u but it's not enough

i'm praying something's gonna give

yeah i know i feel it

and the pendulum is gonna swing

and rotate the seasons

i promise that i'll try

to be a person u deserve at all

cause maybe if i change

you'll let me in when i wanna come home

i'll be laying on my deathbed

and i'll tell u that i fucked it up

yeah i'll be laying on my deathbed

'cause i love u but it's not enough

i promised that i tried

but walls don't break

and words don't mean enough

i swear i never meant

to lose my grip on something that i love