choice mountain

i'm trying to leave my ocean home. i'm trying to leave my ocean

though i don't know nothin' of the swamp. and i could be a limbless star

pushing at the sac all ready to delight the lucid shoal. and you don't look impressed. i could be the dolphin of your dreams

willing wings to my chest. one day i'll grow up and show you

harpoons and monsoons won't keep me at bay

there's so much yet to happen

my limbs

now my fins

now a film on my lips

and why you never call back?

i'm older

i'm colder

i'm not commin' good

a cherub in the ashtray. wriggling back to the source

and thrashing at the waterfalls for what?

somewhere there is a place

and i could be the whale that takes it all. but maybe i'm a lioness

and when i reach the shore i'll

tear apart hyenas with no thought. now organs in a glassy glow

and cloudy with potential

muscle mass and vertebrae begin. trying to figure my place

i'm feverish with all my dreams away. they don't notice me now

but i could be the whale that takes them all. them all!

try this

and try this

and try this again

i'm never gonna make it. delete me

repeat me

let's try this again. a tiny little fish egg

he's homeless

and boneless

and drifting along

just jelly in the blackness. and inching up to the pole

only to be lost among the white. somewhere there is a place

and i could be a pterodactyl god. i'm trying to leave my ocean home.