christmas vacation

you were depressed

you were really messed up

you know i understand

but why did you not talk to me

why didn't you help me prepare for the nightmare

you took a vacation into oblivion

you were so low and i felt like i didn't know you

christmas vacation you took a vacation from me

once it ended

i mended myself

but it keeps falling back down off the shelves in my head

a twinge of pain now

a shudder of disgust

as i shield my eyes from my own memory

i knew all about your plans

i really did understand

but you didn't let me know

i wasn't invited to go

christmas vacation you took a vacation from me

i watched in desperation as you stumbled before my eyes

she needs beer

she doesn't need me

i finally realized

my anger and pain in all your fun

you couldn't recognize

i stopped caring long before you started to cry

i knew all about your plans

i really did understand

but you didn't let me know

i wasn't invited to go

christmas vacation you took a vacation from me