cold cruel world

i don't know what to do anymore

after i quit with medicine i became psycotic

i suffer from depression

complete depression

had it my whole life

i have had it so bad that uh. i had anxiety

been diagnosed with major depression

lots of phobias

lots of fears

anxiety

panic attacks

manic depression before

i didn't think that

depression could be so bad

sometimes it feels like the world's on my shoulders

everything around me closing in

it's starts to grow colder

it's like i'm sitting on death row and waitin' for conclusion

shits real fucked up

my brains filled with much confusion

do you know what it is to sit a 3am

with a gun pressed to your temple on your knees prayin'

or in the bathroom

on the floor

a handfull of pills

cause the fuckin' rent's due and you can't pay bills

have you ever felt the cold grip of death in your heart

i'm talkin' rips right in your cavity and pulls it apart

ten motherfuckin' seconds just from ending this shit

flames rising from the ashes that your about to commit

have you ever stopped your car somewhere far from everythin'

sat a half an hour

just thinkin' of a better way

to put your soul to rest and set your mind at ease

put the barrel in my mouth

i wanna sleep for all eternity

dear cold cruel world why am i here?

i never asked to be alive

everyday it's just a struggle even to survive

dear please juse wipe away the tears

i'll be better off when i'm gone

in my own private hell and left all alone

somany reasons just to leave this fuckin' planet

pressure gets to me so much

god damn

i just can't stand it

people hatin'

credit problems

bitch be fuckin' my friends

a million reasons

circumstances for your soul to transend

nobody like me

i'm a loser

parents wish i was dead

i'm overweight

can't get a date

i'll turn my walls to red

unlock the door

turn up the music

flip the t.v. screen

i'll leave a bloody fuckin' mess off for my moms to clean

it's's to the point that i can't stand it

i can't even try to cope

and you don't know me

you can't help me

you can't offer me no hope

it's too late to try and stop it

i have lost the fuckin' war

i ain't gonna write no fuckin' letter

leave my answers on the floor

i'm a do it i swear

don't even think i'm lyin'

nobody gone remember me

nobody gone be cryin'

all alone in my death like i was in life

let me take my final breath

they can bury me tonight

dear cold cruel world why am i here?

i never asked to be alive

everyday it's just a struggle even to survive

dear please juse wipe away the tears

i'll be better off when i'm gone

in my own private hell and left all alone

you won't miss me when i'm gone

i know you did me so wrong

dear cold cruel world why am i here?

flames risin'

flames risin'

dear please juse wipe away the tears

flames risin'

flames risin'

dear cold cruel world why am i here?

flames risin'

flames risin'

dear please juse wipe away the tears

flames risin'

flames risin'

dear cold cruel world why am i here?

flames risin'

flames risin'

dear please juse wipe away the tears

flames risin'

flames risin'