come winter (seasons)

now

this might get a little personal

or a lot actually

parental discretion is advised

when i was ten

shit

i believed i could fly

i would just flap my fucking arms and try to meet with the sky

and in my mind i'd envision that i was speaking with god

and then i'd chop his fucking fist off and beat him with mine

but this is just a fucking portion of the war with my mind

so i'm a take you fuckers back and through the vortex of time

when i was seven envision me at the bottom of stairs

and i solemnly swear that this is the truth

no fallacy here

see i was young

man

i was just a toddler

a kid

and he wasn't the first to successfully try but he did

he took me to the basement and after the lights had been cut

he whipped it out and sodomized and forced his cock through my gut

see it was weird because i felt like i was losing my mind

and then it happened like it happened millions of times

and i would swear that i would tell but they would think that i was lyin'

and now the power that he held was like a beacon of mine

so now i got used to it

i put up with the shit

and now my hate was so volcanically eruptive and shit

but this is nothing cause i guess he told his friend what he do

and they ate it up

shit i was like a buffet for two

and then it happened in a home where every fucking one knew

and they ain't do shit but fucking blame it on youth

i'm sorry mom but i really used to blame it on you

but even you

by then wouldn't know what to do

and now it happened so often that he was getting particular

and i'm more scared every time - my speed and ventricular

one night he came home and i was asleep in my bed

he climbed on top of me and forced himself between my legs

he told me: hey -