Such Confidence

Just sit down

and let it be

if only today

if only for me

That day

what exactly were you selling

preach?

It's misery

these screaming dreams

you see

we all gotta get so broken eventually

And most shouldn't strut around with such confidence

Because most of the time

your feet are the same whether he's there or not

And most of the time

my feet were the same whether you were here or not

And I take it hard

I take it to heart

and it tears me apart

And I get so tired in that 3 o'clock sun

It grows right on time

right in front of me

I've seen some days

and in some ways

I'm always in and out of living in the now

But it sheds years when you still smell the cedar

Explain to me

I wish I could find a god's teeth to grit them for him

I'd cut off his ears

put them to my heart

he'd hear me break

I'd make it obvious to see

Show him a face like water frozen over

A face that's absorbed everything

Show him it was the wrong day

Show him that i've seen my reach

Explain to me

Just sit down

let it be

if only today

if only for me

I've tried to forget what was said after the fact

I'm talking to my own soul

I bottle these potent thoughts

I'm not obtuse anymore

I'm not talking to anyone

I'm not a door anymore

Explain to me

Honestly

I don't know if I'd believe if you walked right on time

right in front of me