it go - off of my sabbatical
took a few years cause slaughter is what i had to do
which only brings me to now and i ought to be erratical
i say that cause my autobiographical is more so just a graph of you
you did more than what i asked of you
i did less than what i could've
so though we were a hit i had to cancel that show
i'll be amped when she not a ho
but what you doing right now is real commendable
cause between us there's some deep root stare
i gave you the best dick you ever got in your life
and stupid me thought it would be enough to keep you there
i thought you loved football
i was running through the hole with the stiff arm
they say once you stop looking what you looking for appears
you were stronger than i pictured you
and almost just as strong as john
that's just a friend of my moms
with tubes coming out his nose
but shit i never knew why
but he was born with his heart in the right side of his chest
his heart is in the right side of his chest
they must do what they can do
but impute and say it ain't on the right side of his chest
scared he might die in his sleep
every time he coughs wonders if it's a cough or a symptom
he gon' live his whole life waking up every morning to a respirator
so i don't never say what i can't do
if he can be happy with life than nigga i can too
but eyeing his eyes feel i should probably identify
i said everyday he lives with pain and want to end it
something's wired wrong in your brain
had a bad breakup and let it expose dude
but if she was getting you high then she would get you low too
so who's there to wait on me?
y'all just get it off y'all and put the weight on me
and said she don't understand you not as crazy as me
i'm the most mentally flawed nigga
you not even built to withstand what all i've endured
you know shit about the thoughts in my head
or the strength i need daily just to get out of bed
you just know it in disguise
we can end this right here
i got nothing more to say to you
you ain't never met another fucking nigga crazier
cat chastised me cause i got help when you need some
i can give less than a fuck and not a damn
i never be apologetic over who i am
nothing changes when the riches do
but niggas wanna suck you dry just like the bitches do
sucks to be the center of attention
when you can't even center your attention
so i'm fucking out of frustration
they love every second and accuse me of persuasion
red got in her feelings fast
v got threatened by the thought of competition
she why i got a viagra in my wallet right now
but she used me as her rental
you just give me resistance
say you needed comfort zone
i tell 'em all i'm not available emotionally
they start giving me advice like they coaching me
it's something about bipolar sociopath shit
they just find it attractive
but i've been arguing much more since i've been single
tell me is this a relationship or just a fuckship?
whatever situation it is it's all fuck shift
i might love her a bit differently
as for them they'll all love to see a different me
someone'll see that change
but not be present for it
you just act so frightened
even in your absence my feelings are heightened
though i know some love's lost