disfigured

repulsion of beauty drove me to hunt

a frenzy of self hate possessing me

violated their bodies

stripped of their pride

tortured and twisted until they have died

hatred inside is all i would find

i despise what i see in the mirror

sadistic hateful scum

i kill them but it's myself i hate

now i'll do myself too

a straight razor will reshape my face

first my ears then my nose

blood is gushing continue to carve

erase the face i hate

now i'm hacking at my chest

a frenzy of self hate possessed me

controls my actions

controls my thoughts

as i scrape away at my skin

i fill my tub

with alcohol

i plunge into the burning pool

the pain intense

my whole body

is drenched in scalding liquid

despite my pain i am able

to grab a lighter on the counter

the flint ignites

the flames erupt

i'm consumed in the inferno

cauterize

my skin is charred

regenerate

more loathsome than before

i despise what i see in the mirror

sadistic hateful scum

the abomination before my eyes

a reflection of me

i see an image of disfigured evil

i've skinned myself alive

dripping with blood and blistered by fire

the face i hate erased