dissed him

i dissed him

now i miss him

but i miss him because i dissed him

but he done me wrong and i'm not that strong

to resist him

so i kissed him

should i have kissed him when i dissed him?

should i have dissed him but i only miss him?

i don't really know but i'm all alone

and i miss him

i really miss him

now that he's gone out of my life

i don't know whether to laugh or to cry

it cuts like a knife

everytime we say goodbye

i wanna die

he's so deserving

but he's so self serving

he made me so mad

i know it's sad

cuz now i want him so bad

but he lied to me and he knows that that shit ain't gonna fly with me

so

i

weeks come by

he doesn't show

i can't breathe no more and my heart is aching so

confuse emotions in every way

and if i could have him here then i'd see better days

if he could see what he's done to me

i can't sleep and i can't eat and i'm on my knees

begging the lord to find my love and send him back

cuz now i realize he was the apple of my eye

so what do i do?

i'm so in love with you but somethings got to change

can't go on this way

i spent plenty nights trying to make it right

cause i love you boy and i want you in my life

it's like a melody in a song that's haunting me

the memories of deceit makes it hard for us to be

i need a little discipline in my life

cuz my soul i won't sacrifice