don't close your eyes (ashamed)

don't close your eyes

let it be me

don't pretend it's him

in some fantasy

darling just once let yesterday go

and you'll find more love than you've ever known

just hold me tight

when you love me tonight

and don't close your eyes

god

i told myself these are the words i'd never say

i'm my own worst' opponent

and it hurts in every way

you ever thought about smashing the mirrors in your house

so you don't have to see the same person that hurts you every day? i have. i'm shattered

can i pick up the pieces before i pick up a piece

and squeeze

and give up on breathing

go live up with jesus

give up

i'm leaving

sick of the freezing rain

switch up the season

the reason

because i need some sunshine

this umbrella i'm under

while it's raining alcohol

see we're abusing each other

i'm just trying to drown my problems in a bottle of jack daniels

let me talk to y'all about a couple of problems i can't handle

see my whole family's starving'

i need dollars to feed 'em

a dropout

nobody college degreed him

i went the block route

where cops play god with your freedom

what's the odds? i'm going to beat them

all of my friends

man they're gone when i need 'em

the same song plays over and over

my life's bullshit

it's getting older and older

i pour more jack over the soda

told y'all i hate being sober

probably need to meditate with deepak chopra and oprah

i hope for hope

some meaning for tomorrow

and i wish i didn't drink

but ain't no geenie in this bottle

i know

i gotta change and realize i'm highly worth it

but until then

my favorite excuse is nobody's perfect"