don't get to

you don't get to be here now that i'm lonely

you don't get to hear the sounds of my heartbeat

you don't get to hear my voice when it's shaking

you don't get to be the choices i'm making

you don't get to be the one i remember

long-gone memories from one sad december

all my songs

they don't get to be about you

i'm better off without you

look

you know that i don't get it

i thought everything was cool

now i'm sitting here sweating it

i said some shit

now i'm sitting here regretting it

and all these pictures on my phone in somebody else's home

they'll go to waste i guess

what we had was real and it all ended fake i guess

my biggest wish was my biggest mistake and yet

you got me so full of hate and yet

i love the way you treat me

really

i do

only when it's just me and you

i'm wishing you would reach me

text me

or something

you told me you were leaving

fuck you

you're bluffing

'cause i don't want that

i don't want anything but

the truth

and you

and the joy you bring

and the things that you say that i don't know if you mean

now you don't get to be the world

you don't get to be here now that i'm lonely

you don't get to hear the sounds of my heartbeat

you don't get to hear my voice when it's shaking

you don't get to be the choices i'm making

you don't get to be the one i remember

long-gone memories from one sad december

all my songs

they don't get to be about you

i'm better off without you

i'm not as strong as i make myself out to be

i've never been as lonely in my life as i'm about to be

it's still you on my mind when i'm fast asleep

i gotta ask

does your heart still beat?

it doesn't beat for me

it doesn't keep my time

it doesn't sing these words

it doesn't know my rhymes

and you won't care to learn

no matter how hard i try

and that's life

something strong in my cup

i guess this is growing up

i guess was not enough

i was not enough

to make you stay

oh okay

thoughts forming in my brain

like shit this is it

you and i

no more kissing you goodbye

what a ride it has been

all things come to an end

oh well

i tried

you don't get to be here now that i'm lonely

you don't get to hear the sounds of my heartbeat

you don't get to hear my voice when it's shaking

you don't get to be the choices i'm making

you don't get to be the one i remember

long-gone memories from one sad december

all my songs

they don't get to be about you

i'm better off without you

you don't get to be right there when i'm sleeping

you don't get to be the company i'm keeping

you don't get to hear the sounds of my laughter

you don't get to be my happy ever after

you don't get to be the one i remember

long-gone memories from one sad december

and this song is the last i write about you