door without a key

the tears run down your cheekbones

i feel sorry for you

but i'm too fucking selfish to say i do

i'm a rain cloud

and the sun is shining right through me

i'm trying to be different

you look at me and see an open window

that let you in

i see myself as this locking door

without a key to take a chance on me

today i ripped myself wide open

and i saw that my heart isn't as fucked as i recalled

it's still flawed and

it's sorely stitched to my old ways

i thought it was buried

but it's just stuck

to my old ways

i'm a rain cloud

and the sun is shining right through me

i'm trying to be something else

you look at me and see an open window

that let you in

i see myself as this locking door

without a key to take a chance on me

shaking in the driver's seat

staring at the dashboard

i'm holding myself back

while you're trying to break me open

i'm holding myself back

while you're trying to break me open

please just stay

please just stay

you see an open window

that let you in

i see myself as this locking door

you look at me and see an open window

that let you in

i see myself as this locking door

without a key

you look at me and see an open window

that let you in

i see myself as this locking door

without a key to take a chance on me

to take a chance on me

to take a chance