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9tails

december christmas party

last year don't get me started

new year was so inviting

compared to the one before it

9tails

i may've forget what you had said right now

later it'll hit my head somehow

i haven't eaten since i last laid down

three days no sleep so fuck the bread right now

my people tell me it'll all work out

my brain had told me like check the pass like foul

you were fucked up now i throw up when i compare it to my now

wow

i got some problems i should really sort out 'stead of running head down

living piece of shit you smell the fumes from my house

and it ferment cause i never go out

blow bring us something else and i might take my lights out

it's not fair for others

swear i care for others

took me years to raise my head and share the air with others

now i smother them

i aim for anti-sin

i got a lotta gin to drink before i'm whole again

i just wanna lay my body on the ottoman

and love you all mentally present there for all of it

honestly it's hard for me when rapping hourly for salary and still take time to live in my reality

this heavy feeling always disembowel me

i'm spending hours fucking showering

the love they show despite my faults is so empowering

i'm glad my soul is keeping close again