fading lately

i've been finding reasons

to tell myself that i'm not really here or there much

i've been making scrapbooks

of all the places i would like to go when i'm home

and i've got ways to disappear

and now i can't find my way out of here

am i really here?

i don't know where i've been lately

all i see is myself fading

i don't know who i've been lately

all i see is this place fading

i've been playing dress up

trying to find a sweater that makes sense

given the climate

i've been wearing glasses

to let myself see the blurry mess

that i've yet to relate with

and i've got ways to disappear

and now i can't find my way out of here

am i really here?

i don't know where i've been lately

all i see is myself fading

i don't know who i've been lately

all i see is this place fading

i just need to watch some tv

to get a better sense of what i shouldn't be

i didn't use breadcrumbs and now i'm stuck in this place

i left my compass at home and now i can't find my way

i just didn't

i just need

and now i can't find my way

i don't know where i've been lately

everything has changed vaguely

i don't know who i've been lately

all i see is this place fading

i don't know where i've been lately

all i see is myself fading