fainted blue ornaments

the acid reflux in my throat hasn't appeased my taste for bitter blondes

i've twisted so many necks and now their souls daily blind my mind

your presence

i took for granted

i deceived your confidence

i'll never achieve emotional numbness

nor will i enjoy a single peaceful rest

your presence

i took for granted

i deceived your confidence

your angelic hand touches my venomous spine

through overwhelming nightmares

i now stand under this damocles dagger

i'll kill again to lighten apathy towards me

the amazing brightness that makes you so precious

and exceptional tears me apart

i need your presence but my shadow is tarnishing your radiance

i feel remorse but unfortunate events

make my world uglier this morning

repentance hurts but not enough

let's start again tonight