filthy habits

why won't everyone just forget about it?

i left a trail of blood with love

not violence

and i don't deserve anything you're providing

i am cold; leave me alone

i tiptoe corners these days

always hiding

my mind

it swallows whole every last distraction

and all that i'm left with are a million questions

like

have you grown cold? are you fucking miserable?

i just can't listen to sad songs anymore

i get fucking bored

jealous of friendships that i can't abide by

watch the water swallow all of us whole

this time

i swear it's over

jump in with your lungs wide open

haven't you heard? cynics never recover

there are words that i can't even breathe

those are the ones i've been dying to scream

still jealous of friendships i can't abide by

and the water swallow all of us whole

this time

i swear it's over

jump in with your lungs wide open

cynics never fucking recover

spit on the stories you've been told

'cause now you're so much older

it's clear you've forgotten all about this

i don't think i'll ever recover