nobody just picks a topic like zeal" because they're actually experiencing zeal for the lord. you picked a topic like that 'cause you were eaten up with conviction and boredom and apathy and passion and all of those things were just like-- they were-- they were all swirling around in you. like "shit! i gotta do something!" like-- and the word "zeal" pops in. that's my guess. but "flat on the inside". god! uh