you'll never see the pain i hide behind a flipped frown
that's why i always pace and it's so hard for me to sit down
showed 'em i was right when they told me that i should quit now
been fighting for my life and i just hit the 25th round
and it ain't over till that fat bitch is singing
could give a fuck if i'm winning cause i'm going out swinging
i don't know if it's aggression or some sort of depression
i get into and begin to lose sight of all of my blessings
the hate starts to spread through my body like an infection
when i never have the answers to problems that i've been stressing
why you think i do this music? i'm trying to bring a check in
i need me an intervention
this has become an obsession
cause i gave up everything
strictly for the mic
lost a crib and a wife with a kid
did it twice
cause the one i got now is about to walk out of my life
she hates i'm in and out of town and ain't around to hold her tight
but i don't trust no bitch cause to me they're all alike
she's telling me that she's at work
she's probably getting dick tonight
and i know i would of cut her
if i knew i didn't love her
except we don't even kiss
ain't even talking to each other
and my daughters missing daddy so it makes it even tougher
to see rapping as a job when my whole family gotta suffer
i lost another still i'm sitting here relying
on the fact that there's somebody out there that wanna sign him
but i'm getting sick of rhyming
they say this game is timing
i just gotta put the time in and continue with the grinding
but that was 06' and i don't know where all the time went
that's why i don't blame gif for leaving all this shit behind him
they say i got it" and i just gotta get the shinin'