floating in the forth

so you just stepped out

of the front of my house

and i'll never see you again. i closed my eyes for a second

and when they opened

you weren't there. and the door shut shut

i was vacuum packed

shrink-wrapped out of air

and the spine collapsed

and the eyes rolled back

to stare at my starving brain

and fully clothed

i float away

down the forth

into the sea

i think i'll save suicide for another day. and i picture this corpse

on the m8 hearse

and i half run away to sleep

on a rolled up coat

against the window

with the strobe of the sun

and the life i've led

am i ready to leap

is there peace beneath

the roar of the forth road bridge?

on the northern side

there's a fife of mine

and a boat in the port for me

and fully clothed

i float away

down the forth

into the sea

i'll steer myself

through drunken waves

these manic gulls

scream it's okay

take your life

give it a shake

gather up

all your loose change

i think i'll save suicide for another year.