frida

it's dawning on me

i see it now

the world you came into

not what i thought i found

and

i see it clearly

you came to me

with the clearest eyes

a voice that i could not believe

you said it slowly

you said it true

you asked me why she was there in the light with you

and she can't do that

it's not her place

you echoed back to me what you had learnt to say

i could find it

plain to see

why would i expect that it could ever be

and

did i fail you and did i fall

i hoped that we could find a place where we were all alone and

i could explain it

it's not like that

you know your mother

all that was asked

and now you're with me

my only son

my only daughter

the only ones

i read you stories late at night

of what he did and how he conquered all the light

he was so smart

and he was strong

he had all the answers

and he was never wrong

he was the enemy

he was the star

and

he was a friend

and he was in charge

and

he was the good looking

the head of the pack

and where was she?

she was nowhere

she was lost

she was hiding

she was not

she was pretty

she was the prize

she was the glory

she was inside

and she was beauty

she was a child

and she wore dresses

her eyes were wide

her hair was glory

the trains were long

and she was always

on the outside looking in

on the outside looking in

on the outside looking in

couldn't be back where i came

couldn't be lost in the rain

couldn't be wearing that again

couldn't be where you should have been safe

couldn't be walking back through parks and dark and late and all alone

couldn't be where i was

can you just call me when you're safe and home and

don't you go there

don't you wait at night

don't you trust and don't you wait

and don't you be alone when you're driving

and

don't you

don't you

don't you

don't you

don't you

don't you know that

the world was not made for the girls but for the boys

and

i know it's wrong

though know it's not right

your eyes can tell a thousand lies that i just cannot fight

and

don't you

don't you

don't you

don't you

don't you

don't you know that

don't you stay there

on the outside

on the outside