destruction of myself

i close my eyes and make believe i'm anywhere but here

it grows inside and makes me see i'm nowhere even near

although i've tried there's no rewind i cannot disappear

i think it's time that i realize it's me inside that mirror

cuz everything i do reflects on me

and every path i choose effects me deep

these scars are from the wounds i've left on me

only i fit the shoes that get the best of me

nothings ever new made a mess of me

it's all i ever do it's oppressing me

i'm hiding from the truth to the best degree

but it's never out of view it's my destiny

brought down and beat down

destruction of dealing with myself

nothing and no one now it's done

and i'm the one who fell

who fell

it's my own hand that made me fall there's no one else to blame

i try to stand outside these walls and wish i felt the pain

i try to cry but can't because i've dealt with this for days

i'll die the man i am after all i'm selfish in my ways

there's nothing you can do to save me now

it's something that i choose and it weighs me down

it's coming and ensues to play me now

can't run from what i grew it's made me how

i look to all of you afraid

beat down

tattered

and abused

it remains renowned

it's nothing

no new news how it's made me drown

there's nothing left to lose

no escaping now

brought down and beat down

destruction of dealing with myself

nothing and no one now it's done

and i'm the one who fell

brought down and beat down

destruction of dealing with myself

nothing and no one now it's done

and i'm the one who fell

who fell

the destruction of myself stems from no one's actions but my own

everything i do

with every breath i breathe

it's a mistake

every time i try

every time i try to overcome

i fail

failure to the fullest

everything i do is foolish

careless and clueless

i try to stop but still i do this

reckless i choose this

these self inflicted scars and bruises

helpless and ruined

left for dead and rendered useless

brought down and beat down

destruction of dealing with myself

nothing and no one now it's done

and i'm the one who fell

brought down and beat down

destruction of dealing with myself

nothing and no one now it's done

and i'm the one who fell

who fell