this is me

last week i had a thought i'm twenty years

that's old enough to start imagining and plenty fears

or will i go cause i don't fit in here with any peers

know there's more to life than smoking weed and drinkin' beers and partyin'

but what else to do when needin' a lord of fame

wish i could tell jay-z i see myself in you

i started with a dream and now i'm tryin' to be wealthy

too

but it's tough when you're balancin' it all and walking down a tight rope

you balance 'bout to fall

the label's keep tellin' me i'm talented and all

but i need another candy girl to really have it all

i'm hungrier than ever for a check

my situations not at all what you'd expect

i work my ass off

i'm always stickin' out my neck

cause they say the real currency ain't but respect

but if you have one without the other

that means you're a stupid motherfucker

i hate bein' broke

but havin' all the fame

and not havin a deal

and have to be the blame

i wanna win bread and bring it home so after all we can live right

and give half to my mom

just to get right

and just to prove to her she wasn't psycho

for always supportin' this dream

she was right though

but it's tough when life's as stormy as the weather

and her health ain't gettin' any better

and everyday's a struggle

the most recent trouble was her job

caught me cryin' she told me she was laid off

god

but she told me

keep my spirits up high

she workin' i'll just keep on pushin' aimin' for the sky

and people wonder why i spend everyday high

cause my life isn't how it's suppose to be

but i try

keep feelin' that i'm livin' life wrong

but then i stop trippin' as soon as i hit the bong

i go out out to the club

pretend my problems all gone

i see chicks at my shows

know all the words to my songs

my new girl told me g please promise me if we gon' be together