grapefruit

hey

holy ghost

why'd you leave me? where'd you go?

i know we ain't spoke in so long

but i gotta know if i'm alone

if i start drinking

i'm gonna be the town drunk

you always said i should lighten up

i'm gonna lighten up

i'm gonna lighten up

so long. yeah

i'm sorry that i wasn't who you want

if i can't make you happy

i'm no good for anyone

so long. yeah

i'm sorry that i wasn't who you want

if i can't make you love me. i shut you out after the funeral

mired in doubt

you thought a family would help

i was struggling. you could tell

when we got the news that you were pregnant

we painted a room pink and orange like a grapefruit

i know how bad you wanted this too

i know it killed you

in all my dreams

i'm in the house that i grew up in

i'm trying to be half the man i know my dad is

or was

i see me as a father looking over a daughter who grew up to be just like you

and now that's just a thread i can't hold onto

just an open wound

so long. yeah

i'm sorry that i wasn't who you want

if i can't make you happy

i'm no good for anyone

so long. yeah

i'm sorry that i wasn't who you want

if i can't make you love me. hey

holy ghost

why'd you leave me? where'd you go?

right when i fucking need you

i'm all alone. i'm all alone

so

i'll start drinking. yeah

i'll be the town drunk

i'll be a burden on everyone. on everyone. on everyone