half-boyfriend

i don't know where we're going

but i know we've gone too far and

i hope it isn't showing

but i think i love you and

i can't believe you're leaving

just when i let you in and

when you had me believing

i could feel again

i could give a million reasons

why we should not be friends

our moods change like the seasons

my mood ends your mood begins and

you're a tease

you're a cockblocker

you're a loud mouth bitch

and a big talker

but that's okay. you'll grow up someday. you're the pill i never wanted to take. an anti-misanthrope

mine was the heart i never thought you would break

my one hope was that i'd survive you

i've shown up for you

in ways that boy never would

but

i know you'll go back to him and

maybe you should

but

i hope you don't go backwards

cuz i'm going on ahead and

one day you'll wish that you had

stuck with me instead

as i wander through union square

i remember when you followed me there

you were the stalker i kinda wanted to have

being your half-boyfriend was only half bad