holding my breath

before you judge me take a good hard look at yourself

you don't know me but you're draining me of mental health

a lie based on popular opinion

i want to die 'cos' i can't be forgiven

locked in a room

void of humanity

i'm in a black hole

suffering endlessly

opening my eyes is worse than death

that's why i keep on holding my breath

the world is caving in all around me

i see myself as a vulgar monstrosity

my mind collapsed into a technical mess

i can't deal with the guilt that i have to ingest

locked in a room

void of humanity

i'm in a black hole

suffering endlessly

opening my eyes is worse than death

that's why i keep on holding my breath

opening my eyes worse than death. why i keep on holding my breath

worse than death. holding my breath

worse than death. holding my breath

opening my eyes worse than death. why i keep on holding my breath