i'd like to offer you my dearest apologies

i'm a deer caught in the headlamp glow of your traffic jam life. and so

murderously i stand innocently all wrapped up into one

here in your path

crash

and all i can think of is no

and all you can think of is no

no

i don't want to

no

i don't need this

no

i don't know what to do

it's my last decision and it was so selfish. i wasn't thinking of you

and now i've killed you and you've killed me

and i did it so stupidly

please forgive me

i wanted it so bad crouched in the darkness. i couldn't wait either

staring into your eyes

i wanted what i couldn't have

and that was so heartless

i saw the light and my legs began to rise

why i waited until you came along? i don't know

as i sit here in a pile of myself thinking about it all

was it rash

or was this my fate? i'm sure it wasn't yours

i'll take the blame

it was me who came into your path

if it's all the same

i'm really sorry

i can understand your families sad

and if you can't accept my apology please don't feel bad about

cursing my name

i'm just a deer who got caught. i got scared

and i forgot what it was i was doing

what i was pursuing

it's not the way i usually run my life

what a mistake

the whole time i'm asking: what am i doing? who is this running my thought process?

i wish i would have thought before i did what i did

and for that i'm sorry. i offer you my dearest apologies