i'm so concerned about the ending that i don't even know the plot

i'll start it off by saying i'm not one for the complaining

you wouldn't know it from my writing

you wouldn't know it from my songs

but i am different

i am free

i am what you need

but oh my god

i miss you more than i thought was possible

i understood the obstacles but you could have tried more

because sometimes it seems

i need a mom more than i need to eat

so i didn't eat and i didn't sleep

i'd go all day without a bite

and that's not my fault

and i'll admit sometimes my chest gets so tight that i throw fits

you said you'd always be there

where are you through all of this?

because this is hard

this is way harder than i thought

i'm so concerned about the ending that i don't even know the plot

except for i am different

i am free

i am what you need

so you think of all the things that make you sad

and don't include them in your better half

because i'm not like you

i don't find happiness in a meaningless existence

i don't know what i'm going to do

but i am different

i am free

i am what you need

and yeah

i believe that there's a god

i believe that there is something out there other than my thoughts

i believe it was never science against religion

it wasn't poor against wealth

it was always me against myself

and i'm so scared who's going to win

because i wake up feeling so shitty

it's been so long since you've been with me

i don't know where this old body's going to go

or my soul

but i know i am different

i am free

i am what you need