i'm sorry

i should be dead

maybe i got nine lives?

seven left cause i've already died twice

i'm glad it wasn't bye-bye

because it's my time to do it without the high-life

what i'm making is really dope

but i needa talk about some shit that happened a year ago

hold up

let me clear my throat

yo i'm about to get deep but i really hope you feel it though

see talking 'bout it hurts

since when i was an addict but i was at my worst

no-one knew

i didn't tell one person

couldn't bring myself to do it cause i felt like a burden

give me any drug

i was chewing 'em up

if i have nine lives then i'm using 'em up

no-one knew my addiction

it was stupid as fuck

ninety pills daily of nurofen plus

i know that's extreme and i should be dead right

but i was so fucked up my tolerance was that high

that's the thing with the codeine addiction

it's over the counter so you don't need prescriptions

that's three packets in a day

i didn't get high but i would have 'em anyway

cause if i didn't take 'em then i'd be hitting withdraws

and guess what? all of this was mid-tour

and i can't play in this form

having shit thoughts like i got nothing to live for

i was a zombie

i couldn't feel nothin'

i smashed four packets cause i just wanted to feel something

yo

i overdosed for sure

i was at the venue

i was going to perform

i can't remember

see i was told in the report

my tour manager found me convulsing on the floor

everyone surrounding

no one knowing what it's for

literally no one knew that i was going through it all

i fucked up

i should be knowing this before

i'm a fucking junkie

how am i going on a tour?

i let down my fans and i owe it to them all

that's why i'm being honest and so open with it all

it's so hard no one knowing what is wrong

i can't talk about it so i wrote it in this song

woke up in hospital going through withdrawals

someone guarding my bed but nobody would talk

no phone there

nobody to call

saying what the fuck is going on?" and no one would inform me