i always wanted it this way

as i found out that i

had a lot to learn

it turns out the tide

had to take its turn

the line we had drawn

wasn't straight enough

though timelines were burned

we rebuilt the trust

i always wanted it this way

i always hoped it'd be this way

i shielded my heart

to make sense of this

the time spent apart

that my conscience missed

my mind

wandered thoughtlessly

in that land

of uncertainty

i always wanted it this way

i always wanted it this way

i've stayed

at my station on the scene

and frayed

like the circuits in between

and played

as the part of a machine

and i found out that i

had my mind to learn