i don't know how to love him

i don't know how to love him. what to do

how to move him. i've been changed

yes really changed. in these past few days

when i've seen myself

i seem like someone else. i don't know how to take this. i don't see why he moves me. he's a man. he's just a man. and i've had so many men before

in very many ways

he's just one more. should i bring him down?

should i scream and shout?

should i speak of love

let my feelings out?

i never thought i'd come to this. what's it all about?

don't you think it's rather funny

i should be in this position. i'm the one who's always been

so calm

so cool

no lover's fool

running every show. he scares me so. i never thought i'd come to this. what's it all about?

yet

if he said he loved me

i'd be lost. i'd be frightened. i couldn't cope

just couldn't cope. i'd turn my head. i'd back away. i wouldn't want to know. he scares me so. i want him so. i love him so.