i was scared and i'm sorry

i've been obviously on the verge of a mental breakdown this week

stuck between your dirty sheets and back-lit memories

and i've been putting off things like getting my shit out of your apartment

i've been making up excuses about the things that you might need

and i've been trying to find out where everyone's been

but they're nowhere and i'm nothing

and i've been trying to stay as busy as i can

i finally broke on christmas eve

in an outback steakhouse bathroom while my family ordered for me

haven't been losing sleep

no i pass out almost instantly

the bad dreams get worse every week

i think i'm losing a little of me

i'm getting better

but it's in small steps

i'm working on sleeping on the left

i just can't blame new york for this

and so i'm down again

but this time it's different

i'm mourning something that i miss

and that's better than being hopeless

i'm counting back on all my mistakes

from the back of the cop car where you told me you loved me

'cause after that night

i got scared and i'm sorry

but hey

what can i say?

and i've been trying to find out where everyone's been

but they're nowhere

i'm still nothing

and i've been trying to find old friends

i'm getting better

but it's in small steps

i'm working on sleeping on the left

i just can't blame new york for this

and so i'm down again

but this time it's different

i'm mourning something that i miss

and that's better than being hopeless

it's getting weird to think

about the house on manton street

and how neither of us live there

it's probably empty

she watches breakfast at tiffany's

it calms her completely

i guess sarah marshall does the same for me

it's nothing when she's leaning on me and saying she's sorry

i'm obviously on the verge of a mental breakdown this week

i'm getting better

but it's in small steps

i'm working on sleeping on the left

i just can't blame new york for this

and so i'm down again

but this time it's different

i'm mourning something that i miss

and that's better than being hopeless