i called

i called you

but only in my mind

what i really did was to

undress not the body but me and you

word by word til we almost touched

touched

i

i wanted to say everything

but instead i gave up writing

i gave up sublimation

i gave up trying

but i promise you that i

didn't give in

i didn't give in

i didn't give in

i just give

so everything cut and flickered

and ever feel a pillow-less seat

a boat

a tampon?

yes

is there a difference that you're so like you

desire

can you fragment?

it's like a sentence

hidden

broken down

into letters

i send you those letters

l-o-v-e

they are little prisms on your lip

oh

i'm so in love

oh

i'm so endlessly in love

i am a sugar-giver

crush)

i am a sugar-giver

i am so in love

oh

i'm so helplessly in l-o-v-e