in the shadow of a lie

i lead a rich rewarding life

a wife

a home

a car

but generally you can find me down in some dim lit bar

i hold all the pleasures of the world

this fact i can't deny

but i'm living

yes

i'm living in the shadow of a lie

my wife's first husband and myself were on a fishin' trip

he was in our rowboat

me on shore

when i saw my partner slip

a hellish thing took hold of me and i delayed my rescue dash

still i knew my lover husband had finally breathed his last

i took his body back to town and restrained a happy smile

when they said there'd be a hearin'

wouldn't even be a trial

that a fine upstanding citizen like me could do no wrong

and the walls between me and my love would finally soon be gone

now just when my world glows brightest and warm thoughts run through my head

a chilling darkness hovers like a demon over head

and sometimes the guilt inside me reigns so strong i hope to die

for i'm living

is it living

in the shadow of a lie.